My Journey Into, and Through the Lifestyle: Bun

Hellos again! Thank you to all who have been keeping up with everyone's posts! This one today, is going to be real, raw, and vulnerable. I don't talk much about how I came into the lifestyle and the long, arduous journey afterwards, to where I am. But I want to open up and let y'all see inside of me a little bit.

To start off, I had a *very* sheltered, very unstable, and "safe" childhood. When I was in my last few years of high school, I started reading romance novels a lot. A few I had randomly selected, ended up having strong BDSM themes. I was like. I felt like there was something wrong with me, to like that sort of thing. So, I brushed it aside for the time being, and moved on with my very unstable life.

Through some bad decisions, I ended up pregnant and dependent on my family members to help me prepare for the coming baby. I started looking more into what BDSM was and doing my research. My intrigue was growing every day. So, I started joining Kik group chats, back before it is the junk it is today, and meeting ALL kinds of people and dynamics. Funny side note- I ran into a close friend of mine in one of the chats.That essentially made us even closer, now that we both had someone to talk to about everything.

I quickly noticed the DDlg dynamics and was like..THIS IS IT. THIS IS WHO I AM. My friend agreed 110% because she'd known me for yeaaaaaars. And so, as embarrassed as I am to say, I dove head first into sub frenzy. I wanted it all, and I wanted it all NOW. I changed who I was, to fit the needs and expectations of the Dominant I was speaking with. I, quite literally, lost myself. It took me a year or so of terrible experiences with different Dominants and Daddy Dom's, for me to be over the lifestyle and focus on my son and my life.

It's actually been about a year or so, since I've started exploring again. I took what I knew about myself from back then, and applied it to now, and have found out what I want and need in a dynamic. I've become *way* pickier than before, and knew that my submission was a gift, and it's not for just anybody to have. I believe, I joined a few DDlg FB groups in January, and I actually met my Daddy when he was added into the group chat I was in.

He mentioned in group that he owned his own game shop business. And he had me sold. I started posting about my tabletop game I play, and he was sold.We talked a few days in group chat before moving to private messages and the chemistry was palpable. And I mean, not physical, I mean, emotionally and mentally, we were perfect for each other. The physical stuff would come later, a few months later.

All of this to say, treasure your submission, until you find someone who will cherish it and protect it. Be picky. Know what you want. And what you need. Don't mold yourself to a Dom's expectations. BE YOURSELF. And the Dominant for you, will treasure you like you deserve.

And as always, feel free to reach out to us! There is a contact link on the bio page! Hope y'all have a great day